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ysabetwordsmitharlie mentioned in a post that Protonmail allows you to create email aliases to avoid spam. This also seems extremely useful for cases where someone extorts your email from you before giving you something you need, but you don't really want to hear from them afterwards.
arlieysabetwordsmith ysabetwordsmith ysabetwordsmith ysabetwordsmith ysabetwordsmith kaberettThe nature of veg box is that Vegetables for which I have no Plan... accumulate. Today's dinner took a bunch of said accumulated veg and made them salad-shaped, and it worked out well enough that I want a record as a reminder for future self that one can just Do This.
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ysabetwordsmith kaberettIn brief: book is the least I've been annoyed by any such book I have yet read, which is fairly impressive going, especially since the copy in the BL's collection is the first edition originally published in 2003 rather than the second edition updated in 2013; more notes possibly to follow (subject to reaching a decision about whether I want to hold out for getting my hands on a copy of the second edition before talking about it in public).
Entertainment: shortly after I finally settled myself down in my nice corner desk against a window with my back to the wall and a whole enclosed-in-glass booth between me and Any Other Readers... my watch buzzed to let me know that I'd just finished a Period Of High Stress. The high stress was, obviously, sitting quietly wedged into a corner on public transport while reading a relaxing book. I did know public transport was exhausting! I have been saying! I'm still kind of impressed at the watch Earnestly Informing Me, In Case I Didn't? Know? and mildly regretting that I'm planning to do the same-ish again tomorrow, and also also I am reassessing A Lot of my wheelchair use in light of this...
Related entertainment: how much my hypervigilance kicked up when I returned from lunch to discover that neatly leaving my notebook and reading-book in a stack on my desk had not had sufficient inhibitory effect, and a Noisy Person had decided to sit diagonally across from me, in my Space, being Noisy. The amount I relaxed when they (temporarily) fucked off is another one for the "yep I can see how not leaving the house for over a year and then staying Hyper Local has added up to me looking much more functional" files...
ysabetwordsmith cosmolinguistWe're going to be on vacation from the 16th to the 25 of September.
The other day I blocked this time out in my calendar. The most accessible way to do this involves inputting the start and end dates.
Today I was asked about a meeting for a random Tuesday in October and when I went to see whether or not I was free, I saw that whole day I was showing as "on leave." And the Monday before it. I'm not aware of any reason I'd have time off then!
Zooming out and every day was showing as on leave. Every day that month.
I investigated and, instead of making the vacation last until the 26th of September, I'd somehow gotten it to be the 26th of December.
My burned-out brain just wants an extra three months off, heh.
fayanoracosmolinguist5am and I'm awake from bad dreams. My brain is being a jerk...
Or, it's tired, I've been pushing it too hard for too long. It's trying to take care of me. It's trying to identify potential threats and think about what to do about them.
It's not its fault that the "what if there's a tiger after me" adrenaline and cortisol-based hardware is the only response available to the "complicated family and memories and bullshit email job" emotions that the software is currently running.
I got back to sleep, yay, but I very convincingly dreamed witnessing an accident and having to accompany family members (D and his sister and then somehow V as well) to A&E. I had every detail: bad phone signal when calling 999, not being able to get an ambulance, waiting all day, seeing excellent and nice clinical staff who are very busy)... I stayed with D and knew to look away when they did something that I know in real life would freak me out.
We were just getting to leave, both of them patched up, when my alarm went off.
If I didn't have such a busy day, and a deadline that depended on me doing something not just today but first thing this morning, I might well have called in sick. I never do that, but I honestly felt like I'd just spent a long eight hours looking after severely injured loved ones. It felt unfair to have to go to work too right after that.
But I did.
kaberettThe thing about buying new glasses, right, is that I've been feeling avoidant about it in part because I think I was slightly migrainey the day I had the most recent test done and I was already pretty sure that my vision goes... wrong... when migrainey -- most noticeable when moving, but always... there.
Slightly more specifically: it's neither scintillating scotoma nor loss-of-whole-field-of-vision nor any of the other very classic visual auras; instead it's a sense that I'm not managing to track movement properly along the lower edge and especially the lower corners of my field of vision.
... which matches up really well, actually, with the peripheral vision deficiencies that, er, showed up during my last eye test.
I've been noticing the Weirdness on-and-off for quite some time now, and was dithering back and forth about whether it was just confirmation bias in that I was only noticing it when otherwise migrainey -- but then on Monday, while on my way to my GP surgery to pick up some paperwork, it resulted in the railings I was going past (and that I go past regularly!) causing an extremely pronounced and unmistakeable strobing effect. I am very confident that that is not something I would somehow manage to confirmation bias myself out of noticing most of the time, so, hurrah, Definitely A Migraine Symptom (for lo, on Monday I was migrainey) it is.
The thing that is mildly baffling me is that I can't actually find (admittedly on a fairly cursory search) any description of specifically peripheral vision fuckery as a migraine thing! Lots of mentions of tunnel vision, lots of mentions of classic aura, and one case study in which "peripheral vision" is used metaphorically. So, you know, let the record show, &c.
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